May 7, 2009

Searching For A Breakthrough

Last week I received a comment that reminded me of how I've felt in the past.

Robert E.

Why is it so hard to pray? I have been going through a lot of external stuff (finances and parenting) and that is causing a lot of internal issues (failure at parenting, failure to provide adequately for family, etc). I know I need to pray. I know I need to get closer to God. But I just keep on listening to those stupid voices in my head that are telling me that there's no point. That I'm fooling myself thinking God would help me. Why would God help a failure like me? What good am I?

How do you break that wall down? I've heard all the usual stuff that people tell those who are depressed but I just shrug it off as "that's not what I need".

Why can't I break through the wall? I don't like feeling this way about me. Why won't God just take this helplessness away?

I'm going to go through each of these questions and will give what is hopefully a brief and pointed answer.

1. Why is it so hard to pray?

"Hear me when I call, O God of my righteousness! You have relieved me in my distress; Have mercy on me, and hear my prayer." (Psalm 4:1) - if David, a man after God's own heart, had to ask God to HEAR his prayer than I would suggest that we all consider asking God to hear our prayers before we start praying away. James 5:16 says that the "Prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective". The last thing the enemy of your faith wants is for you to be praying with power and effectiveness. The last thing your flesh wants is to be praying in a way that God becomes so highly exalted in your life that every distraction is seen by your spirit as an opportunity to rejoice. "Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." (James 4:7). Are you submitting yourselves to God - in other words, have you given him full authority to do whatever He pleases in your life? Are you resisting the devil?

2. Why would God help a failure like me?

Because He loves helping failure's like you and me. Each of us, apart from Jesus, fall short. Even with Jesus we are constantly falling short of His glory. His blood covers us so that God sees us as heirs, co-laborers, and children He loves. "Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. (1 Cor. 1: 26-29). Stop believing the lie that you are a failure. If Jesus does not call you a failure, then who is speaking the failure lie to you? Resist the devil and he MUST flee.

3. What good am I?

Not much, apart from having received the victorious blood of Jesus shed for you which is the ransom paid to salvage you from worthlessness into glorious worth.
"O my soul, you have said to the LORD,“You are my Lord, My goodness is nothing apart from You.” (Psalm 16:2)

4. How do you break the wall down?

You don't. There's not an ounce of human strength that can overthrow the walls put up against us. Asking God to move in, and root out everything in your heart that does not please Him, is your only hope. Prayer is our strongest weapon. "The weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but are mighty in God for pulling down strongholds". (2 Cor. 10:4) When you see prayer as a gun, bazooka, or even a tank, it changes why and how you pray. God has given us a weapon to fight with and it's strong enough to pull down strongholds not only in our lives but in the spiritual realm.

5. Why can't I break through the wall?

Have you asked God to show you what is standing in the way of the wall coming down? We have a tendency to over think everything. But, in reality, it's so simple that even a child could figure it out. "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." (Matthew 7:7) I wonder if half our problem is that we just don't ask.

6. Why won't God just take this helplessness away?

Sometimes he does allow us a level of helplessness so that we are practically forced back into His arms. It's entirely possible that the enemy is trying to hold you back because he knows how dangerous you might be if you were to be set loose. But don't write everything off as your flesh or as Satan's work. God loves to put us in a position where we HAVE to trust Him 100 percent. "For we do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, of our trouble which came to us in Asia: that we were burdened beyond measure, above strength, so that we despaired even of life. Yes, we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead, who delivered us from so great a death, and does deliver us; in whom we trust that He will still deliver us". (2 Corinthians 1: 8-10)

Lord Jesus, would you please show Robert and any others who are feeling the same loneliness, helplessness, worthlessness, pressures from the world, and despair, that You alone are the answer. Would you remind them that they are chosen by You and that you have a beautiful plan and purpose for their lives (Romans 8:28). I pray that you bring down every hindrance on their path to be freed from every stronghold. In the mighty name of Jesus, please release them from the depth of their despair and lift them up out of the pit. I rebuke and resist the devil, along with all his plans to capsize their faith; therefore He must flee. Would you please come, Jesus, and increase their love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, self-control, faithfulness, and goodness. Please work the miracle of restoring a deep sense of trust in You to their hearts. "With God all things are possible"(Matthew 19:26).

Don't give up. "The Lord will fight for you, and you will hold your peace" (Ex. 14:14).


1 comment:

Robert Eilers said...

I have to leave a comment to update you on my situation. Praise God He is good!!!

This past Friday I went to a Men's Conference in Berea, KY along with several other men including our Pastor. As part of the conference we were to be part of the prayer room. We had a block of time that was ours to be in there and pray for anyone who came and to be in constant prayer the entire block of time.

It was an awesome time of prayer. They had laid a cross down on the floor of the room and set a chair at the foot of the cross. Any led to sit in the chair could then bring their prayers to the foot of the cross. It was incredibly powerful.

Towards the end of our time they asked if anyone else needed to sit in the chair and I came forward. At first as the other men laid hands on me and began to pray nothing really happened but then after 30 seconds of praying my walls began to come down.

I began to cry and ask God to help me. To protect my family. To drive the devil out of my life. To give me strength to fight the devil and his minions.

Then it happened, I had this urge to reach down and touch the cross. When I did I literally fell out of my seat onto that cross and wrapped my arms around it. I could feel Jesus on that cross with me. My arms were wrapped around His feet and I began wailing uncontrollably. I've never experienced anything like it before. All my walls of depression and worthlessness came crashing down with each wail from my mouth. I walked out of that room a different person than when I went in. The Wednesday before I had prayed that God would show me His power at the conference. He truly did.

I thank God for not "just taking this helplessness away". I had to be brought to a point of lowliness in order for God to bring me back up. For a long time I've felt God trying to move me to a new level in my walk with Him. This was His way of doing it. God doesn't use straight lines to get things done unfortunately. A lot of times He has this winding, detour that we have to go one in order to get where He needs us. Or where He can finally use us.

I've learned a lot the past week about spiritual warfare. We really need to realize that there is a world around us we can't see and the devil is there attacking us with all the tricks and lies in the book. But when we finally understand that those things in our head telling us that we are not worthy, that we are not saved, that we are a failure etc, then that's when we start turning from being on the defense to being on the offense.

I am now on the offense. Satan has no right to me, my family, my job, my church, my mind, my body, my strength and especially my heart and soul. So devil, you and the rest of your crew can go take a flying leap because the tide has turned. The agreements I made with you about the lies you told me are null and void. Any further lies and tricks you try to bring against me will be shot down in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord. I make no more agreements with you. Your lies WILL be seen for just what they are, LIES. So here is a big, fat "L" for loser because devil, you are the the loser and I am the winner.

Praise God for He IS good!!!!!